mama

mother & son

mama it's your lil' son 

I've grown up

I am sure you'll be pleased to see me 

healthy and strong 

mama I'm sad 

you're not keeping your words 

It's been years and you're still not home

I miss you more each day

mama I cried, 

cried several times

I was at cousin's home and it was fun 

but when dusk came and artificial lights lit up rooms 

I cried 

mama I hid underneath a bed

and cried my heart blue 

they found me soon enough

and looked at me with pity

oh mama! how I cried 

mama I hear your voice over the phone 

but that's not enough 

and I can't speak 

mama, I wish you could hear my heart 

each beat waits for your return 

mama I miss the way you smell

I can't recall 

the last fragrance from your shirts 

faded as the machine beat it into pulp 

and what remained vaporised in the sun

mama come home

 have me in your arms 

and I'll forget all that you missed

 my PTA 

the concert where I danced like a star

and more

mama I'm hurt 

you're not listening

I'm entering a dark alley,

inside a bar no one seems to bother

 for I look old enough

a man at the counter hands me a shot 

I gulp it down 

the acidity burns my throat 

but cocoons my heart 

its no longer blue 

and it no longer beats for you